Why don't you marry him?
He seems serious about it.
I can't possibly marry him.
Why not?
Well...
You, of all people, should know why.
What?
You knew?
It's true when they say spouses look alike.
Your surprised facial expression...
looked exactly like his surprised expression.
I'm sorry.
From when...
did you realize we were a married couple?
From when did you know?
Well...
It wasn't something that I realized.
Eh? What do you mean?
I knew...
from the very beginning.
What?
I knew from the time I went to see Shoichi.
That he was married.
From the beginning?
What? Wait. Wait a minute...
What do you mean you knew from the beginning?
Were you deceiving us all this time?
Love Letters ~Men We Have Loved~ Episode 7
I'm sorry.
An apology won't suffice!
What...! That's ridiculous! How could you?!
Does Shoichi know?
What's this all about?
Why did you do this?
What was it all for?
Do you know what I went through?
I had to pretend to be Shoichi's cousin.
What were you thinking when you saw that?
You've got the gall!
Will you explain it so that I understand?
Yes.
Depending on what you say, I may not forgive you.
I... coincidentally spotted Shoichi who came to this
hospital to visit someone.
So I went to that person's room and asked about Shoichi.
That's when found out that he lad a wonderful wife and a son.
This may sound like an excuse to you,
but after I saw him, I had an urge to see him again.
I was choked up with all the nostalgia.
That was how it all started at first.
I wasn't expecting anything from him.
However, after I met with him, all the lonely emotions
that I had pent up in me...
...came bursting out.
I wanted him to hear how I felt.
I wanted him to hear my feelings, so I told him all.
I can't put a stop to my feelings anymore.
I'm like a child...
that's ratting on someone for picking on me.
I told him about my illness and my lonely situation.
I'm sorry.
What?
I didn't know...
Shall I stay with you?
What?
If you...
...only have six months to live...
Shall I stay with you?
What do you mean?
W-What?
Let's do that.
But...
Let's be together.
For half a year.
Let's be together as much as we can.
I won't let you feel lonely anymore.
Let's do that.
I'll just quit my job at the school.
I'll find a job that will allow me to spend
as much time as possible with you.
Let's do that. Okay?
What are you saying?
You don't want that?
That's not the point.
You can't do that.
You'll ruin your own life.
What are you saying? I'm completely fine with it.
Aren't you married?
Married?
No, I'm not.
I'm not.
I'm a bachelor.
I'm single.
What?
So I'm completely fine with it.
I'm fine with it.
It's no problem at all.
I was shocked.
I couldn't believe what he said.
But...
you know...
It made me very happy.
I was shocked... but also very happy.
I'm sorry.
And?
I felt badly towards you...
but I decided to play along with his lie.
I'm an introvert...who has no self-confidence...
I've never stood out in life.
I chose a job that had minimal human interaction.
I don't know how to explain this,
but I never felt like I lucked out in life.
But I wasn't a big enough person to think that it's
all right to not have lucked out in life.
I always wondered why I had no luck when others did.
I thought it wasn't fair.
So...
In the end, at least...
You thought it was okay if you lucked out?
Yes.
I see.
I wasn't playing fair though.
But I thought I should be allowed at least that much.
I thought it was okay to go along with what Shoichi said.
After all, I only have six month to live.
So I thought I could at least have that much.
I see.
But I didn't think it was truly possible.
After all, Shoichi is married.
I figured it was something he had said impulsively.
But he really came to me.
I was elated.
I had fun.
I was truly happy.
I thought it was God's last gift of happiness to me.
But I was scared...
I wondered how his wife took it, and what she thought about it.
Kyoko, did you consent to it?
Yes, I did. I approved it.
Why?
I don't know.
I don't understand it myself.
Maybe I shouldn't be saying this...
but I thought you were great.
Truly amazing.
You either loved him very deeply, or you had complete faith in him.
In any event, you appeared awesome to me.
I'm not awesome at all.
No, you are.
Stop it.
I'm not awesome. It's nothing like you think.
I just like to show a good front.
Then I regret it later and panic.
Besides...
When he tells me...
so innocently, what he wants to do...
I can't oppose him.
I'm a hopeless woman. I really am.
I should be getting angry with him
and dragging him home with me.
Or telling him not to come back again.
But I can't do either.
I'm hanging in limbo.
Besides...
I was partly doing it as charity.
I told myself you had only six months to live,
so I was helping you out by doing this.
You don't have time, but I do.
But what I did was wrong...
I can't continue on with it.
He asked me to marry him.
So it's impossible to go along with it.
He's unreasonable...
...but wonderful.
I shouldn't have broken up with Sho-chan.
I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you.
I'm very sorry.
It's all right.
Besides, I am...
a bit grateful to you.
What?
This may sound strange...
but after he left...
I fell in love with him all over again.
It had nothing to do about not wanting to lose him.
No, maybe it does.
But I realized that I love him, after all.
As a matter of fact...
I've fallen even deeper in love with him.
What?
Then again, that's what upsets me.
I see. I understand now.
I thought we we're tricking you, but it was the reverse.
What a shocker.
I'm sorry.
No. It's all right.
What is it?
I feel embarrassed for putting on the act.
I'm sorry. But you were very good at it.
Give me a break.
Wait a minute.
Does that mean, only Shoichi doesn't know?
Yes.
What shall we do?
Well...
I can't keep it from him any longer.
Why don't we just leave it as it is?
What? But...
Yeah. We'll leave it as it is. He deserves it.
Yeah. It's fine. Let's leave it as it is.
What?
Yeah. That's fine.
You were wrong, too,
but he's mainly at fault.
How dare he say it's all right because he's single!
That was the worst thing he could have said!
I hold him responsible till the very end.
Let's deceive him together.
Okay?
Are you sure?
Yes, I'm sure. I'm already in it.
Besides, I have a lot of time to get him back.
Although I lack the confidence.
Don't say that.
What about you? Are you sure?
What?
If you confess the truth, you can't interact with him
the way you always have.
- Yeah. - Is that what you want?
No.
Aren't you in love with him?
Yes, I am.
Ah! You're blunt!
I'm sorry.
We're acting like two men.
We're better than the men.
Think so?
Yes, we are.
Thank you.
And I'm sorry.
Just forget it already.
Forget it.
Stop crying. Tears don't look good on you.
That's what's bad about women.
You surprised me.
What are you doing?
Mikiko, what are you doing here?
I was taking a stroll.
What? Aren't you going to see her?
Or did you see her already?
No.
I'm going from now.
I had too much to drink last night.
I was going to get rid of my hangover first.
I'll keep you company then.
Thank you.
Mikiko...
Yes?
Women are scary.
Why do you say that?
Well... Just a feeling that I get.
Women are scary.
That's right.
Men can't beat women.
After all, they are born from women.
Come in
Good morning, Sho-chan.
What?
Kyoko, you're here.
What a greeting.
Aren't you later than usual?
What?
You're lucky I came.
You shouldn't make her feel lonely.
What?
He's truly hopeless!
He's the most hopeless amongst all my cousins!
He's a MVP in hopelessness.
What?
- Is that right? - Yes, it is.
Huh?
Ah!
Hey! What are you laughing about?
Are you stupid?
I'm sorry.
Would you like to hear about his hopelessness?
Stop it.
- I want to hear it. - What?!
Which story shall I tell you?
Hey, stop it.
Hey!
Stop it!
Kyoko...
Yes? What is it?
Thank you.
For what?
For visiting Etsuko.
Don't mention it.
It was a lot of fun.
Yes.
What are you saying?
It wasn't fun for me!
Don't get the wrong idea.
Sorry.
You're always letting it get to your head.
Sorry.
Oh, brother.
Sorry.
Here is fine.
See you later.
See you later!
Kyoko...
- What is it? - Don't give me that.
- Right? - Yeah.
Did you have your confrontation?
How did it go?
I confronted her, all right.
And?
She was above me.
You know...
I got really upset!
Why are you laughing?
You wouldn't understand it even if I explained it.
So I won't explain it.
I won't explain.
What is it? You're giving me the creeps.
What happened? Tell me.
No. I'm not telling you.
Until you tell me your story first.
Never mind then.
You're a strange one.
Keisaku...
Hmm?
Women are awesome.
I guess.
Men wouldn't be around without the women.
Nothing.
What is it?
As I was saying...
Women are awesome...
but they're also scary.
I guess.
They really are!
But they're nice to have around.
I guess.
Women are nice to have around. I like them.
You're not making any sense.
Do you dislike women?
No, I like them.
You look like you do.
What was that?
You're drinking too much.
It's all right.
And they lie.
What?
Well, I'm just saying...
Who do you think it's harder on?
The one who lies or the one who is lied to?
That would be...
the one who lies.
Do you really think so?
Just a feeling I get.
Have you ever told a lie?
Have you ever told a big lie to the woman you love?
Yes, I have.
What kind of lie?
Well, that is...
I almost fell for it again.
Just give up and tell me.
Yeah, right, I won't give in so easily.
That's not the point.
A lie...
Yes.
It must be painful to tell a lie.
Yes. I guess so.
Is that right?
Yes.
We joined hands.
Oh, my. That's great.
Do you think so?
Yes, I do.
I like that kind of relationship between women.
Didn't it take a burden off of you?
Umm...
Right?
Yes.
Good.
Yes.
A lie, huh...
It's painful to die with a lie...
Yes.
Mikiko...
I want to hear more about your life story.
Why?
Well... Please tell me. I look forward to it.
What are you saying?!
My life story isn't like an old fairytale.
I know.
The truth is...
I was in the mood to tell you more.
I stopped at a good part, didn't I?
It's like an afternoon soap opera drama.
Yes. So please tell me more about it.
Well... Right!
I was happy, but I betrayed Keisaku.
I'd see my old lover every so often.
Why?
I don't know.
The lies that I told before I went out
were blatant and transparent.
I thought Keisaku knew they were lies,
but he wouldn't show any sign of suspiciousness.
Instead, he'd urge me to go out, smile,
and offer to do the cleaning.
I went out with him, but I did not cross the line.
Maybe I lacked the courage to.
He was serious, though.
But I ignored his interest in me and just went out with him.
Maybe I wanted to torment Keisaku a bit...
and get him upset with me.
I don't fully understand why I did what I did,
but I might've been irate with his kind and friendly ways.
I felt there was something lacking in the relationship.
There was a part of me that expected him to be upset.
When I'd come home late from my dates,
laughingly tell me, "Did you cheat on me again?"
I'd get upset to hear that, even if I was wrong...
After a while, I broke up with that old lover of mine,
without anything serious happening.
But...
On the last day...
On our last night...
I got upset to see Keisaku smiling again when I returned.
So I told him. "What are you smiling about?"
I just came back from a date with another man.
Then...
What do you think he replied to that?
He asked me how many times I slept with that guy.
So I told him once.
Then he said he was more in the wrong.
He said he cheated on me many times.
So he was in the wrong.
Then he apologized to me.
His lover was a young girl in the shop.
Then he upped and left.
It was a lie...I'm sure.
I'm sorry. I'm tired of talking.
A lie...
Yeah.
Are you finally ready to tell me?
No, not yet.
Suguru, I'm going to the hospital.
Haven't you been going every day, lately?
That's true.
It's not fair that only you get to see Dad.
What?
That's not why I'm going.
Not that it matters to me.
I'm sorry. But I'm not going there to see your dad.
What is that supposed to mean?
Well... That's just not the reason why I'm going, that's all.
What are you pouting about?
You're not a kid, you know.
I'm sorry.
Never mind. Just go on.
Yeah. I'm going then.
Sorry. See you later.
Come in!
You're late!
Where is she?
The Cinderella for half a year has gone out.
Oh. Where did she go?
To the terrace.
Oh!
By herself?
I liked the band. Checkers, too.
We're alike.
Is that true?
Yeah.
Who did you like?
Promise you won't laugh?
I won't laugh. Who?
You're kidding me!
Why do we have the same taste in men?
Is it the same?
Yes, it is.
We like hopeless men.
The unreliable type.
You may be right.
Can I ask you something?
Sure.
The time I had to hit you in the back...
Was that intentional?
Eh?
No, it wasn't.
You're lying. It was.
No, wasn't. It didn't even cross my mind.
It may not have started off as intentional...
but it became intentional later, right?
That's not true.
No. I'm sure that it was.
Oh, never mind.
I have another question.
I thought it was only one.
It popped into my mind.
It's okay, isn't it?
Okay.
Don't you want to marry Shoichi?
What?
You said a wedding portrait was sufficient,
but don't you want a real wedding with him?
Why are you asking that?
Because I'm your friend.
Yes, I do...since I love him.
I thought so.
Can I ask you something?
- Yeah. - It's just one question for me.
Did you wish for me to die early?
What?
Yeah.
So you did.
Yes, I did.
Let's ignore him.
Let's leave.
Hey!
Don't run away!
Kyoko, you have a call on line eight.
Hello? This is Kyoko.
Thank you, always.
I'll have to put you on restricted meals.
I see.
How are you feeling?
I'm gradually getting worse.
There's nothing I can do.
But I'm happy now.
Because I have you.
And Kyoko.
I'm happy.
Hey, what's wrong? You look depressed.
I'm fine.
Watch out!
Keisaku!
Ambulance! Ambulance!
Hang in there!
Keisaku!
Hey! Understand?!
Hang in there!
bokutachi wa ayamachi wo okasu We keep making mistakes
bokutachi wa sugu ni tachidomaru and soon will come to a stop
sasai na koishi ni sae mo tsumazuite Stumbling over just a small pebble
dareka no kotoba wo shinji Whose words do we believe?
dareka no te no naka ni iru And whose hands are we in?
saigo wa hitori na noni Even though we are alone in the end
jibun ga kizuite iru yowasa The frailty that we notice in ourselves
jibun ni taerarenai morosa And the weakness that we can't bear in ourselves
mienai furi wo shita mama ikite yuku We live on, pretending we can't see it
doushiyou mo nai iradachi The feelings of helplessness
doko mo atenai tabidachi as we start off on a trip with no destination
kurikaeshite Over and over again
hiiragi wa Holly is
fuyu no otozure tsugeru hana the flower that tells of winter's visit
bokutachi wo tada soko de mioroshite iru By simply looking down upon us
maidashita konayuki wa The powdery snow that danced on its way down
tsumoru no deshou has blanketed the ground, don't you think?
fuyu wo taenuite yuku I want the strength
tsuyosa ga hoshii yo to endure through the winter
kimi no mune no katasumi ni There's a thorn that remains
nokoshita toge wo in a corner of your heart
yagate kuru haru made ni I want to melt it
tokashite agetai by the time the approaching spring comes